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| 03.29.04 (8:43 am) [edit] |
DAY 4 in Krabi~~
We meet the Thai rasta "CliffsMan" instructors, Teak and George, at their spot on the roof, right next to the roof deck restaurant we lately come to watch news in the morning or maybe a movie at night. We get on our gear, and we set out to the 123 Wall again.
As I have said -Rockclimbing is one the greatest metaphors for life .. well, people's approaches to it also really show some things about their character- that they are everyday.
And this was us on the rock.
Erin sticks out especially in my mind becasue she did it with out a peep. No I' can't do its. No wow that's scary. No, I don't want to...just a silent longbodied crawl up and up and then finally it was over... and then we could talk about it later.
Karen and Bret no problems, no real hassle beyond first timer shit, like billy goats but sweaty ones
Amanda great for her first climb.. if time permitted she would have picked up where she left off in the battle and beef she has with that rock...
Zac, a lil experience kicked in, he rocked them all with that muppet smile still on face. Good idea Zac.
And then there's Andrea...wouldn't let the fuck up, mind-over-any-matter... and ofcourse, especially this day- it also does help to have a little pack of friends cheering you on.
5 climbs. I begin by getting up and over the 5th climb I had ended with on my first day and couldn't complete.
One more climb "A little bit higha!" that time.
Then comes the 4th I bailed out I didn't even try because of the first overhang you have to go upside down vertical to scale! Respect to Karen, Brett, ERIN and Zac for getting through that one..
Amanda and I were losing monetum. That is the worst thing you can do.. If you do one climb- you believe you can do the next if you go son enough BUT sitting and waiting puts you into the doubt swing again...
Teak set up a really baby climb to do, I did it anyway and it pumped me up for the largest one I did next....
100 feet up in the air I felt strong. My hands were wet powder flaked and slipping from crevices searching for the Way, searching for the hooks. My feet in broken toe shoes too damn tight they make them ( air conditioner - Teak calls the hole in the toe..) - its amazing how you can balance your wait on one toe leaning ona centimeter edge in the rock. But I felt smart, if that's what it takes. I felt knowing, and that is what made me push on through.
This beautiful little inlet cave 100ft up in the face of the rock cradled me at the top. What wild birds and spirits run through here I should meet... and the window frames created by the limestone had to have been planned but maybe they were not....breath returning dirty nails I dug into the sandy rocks on the ground of the cave looking for stones to bring home with me. My friends below made a bet on what I was doing up there for so long, they say crying, talking to myself etc.. and not ONE guessed right...it was a great feeling.
We all have these comfort zones.. certain privileges, certain materials, certain things that we cling onto and become dependant on so much that we are blind to the fact that they even exist anymore. We just use them in robot mode and will we maybe MALFuNCtion when without them?
Then we have these ways of resorting to our comfort zones by creating these ludicrous-often ridiculous justifications that just makes it ok for us to keep something that we don't need or that may even harm us around around.
Out here rugged, you shed those comfort zones out completely... because nothing can be expected to be there- its as silly as trying to buy a hairbrush in Laos where they only know combs OR its as serious as, will I get a body-eating bug if I brush my teeth? And although you may inject yourself into a challenge that may at first be uncomfortable....sometimes the things you learn about the universe and the breakthroughs that you make on your past and present lives really becomes worth it. What is comfort? and why was it built? The questions the questions and maybe get to the truth of things where you are closer to what really matters...
all for now..
Much love and peace to you all more later.... Andrea
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posted by: lockwoman (reply)
post date: 03.30.04 (12:20 am)
hey girl... still reading your blogs. good stuff. three cheers for you sista! I'm in Bangkok sorting stuff out.
posted by: DrDrea (reply)
post date: 03.30.04 (4:00 am)
Reply to: lockwoman
What up lady? I am in Vang Vieng in Laos. If and when heading up in here- let me know, I could give you little pointers!... I obviously haven't caught up on my blog! Will I ever? Where u headed? Be in touch! Much love and peace Andrea
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